Dear Die-ary,

For a while now I've been wondering what I want to do with my life, where I want to go, what I want to see, how I'm going to get there.. I'm realizing now that most of my doubts have been coming from other peoples opinions. This has been causing a lot confusion for me lately.
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Sitting in my room watching the smoke slowly float around my head. I wonder when things got like this. I wonder if they'll ever get better. I feel nostalgic. I miss the days when I was younger. Living on ten acres of land, every day began with a smile for I knew that everyday would, without a doubt, be a good day.
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My uhhhh, friend, recommended that I read this book, 1984 by George Orwell. I'm nearly half-way done with it and I must say it's one of the best books I've ever read. It's kind of a futuristic idea based on what the world would be like in 1984(mind you this book was written in 1949).
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To start this out, I can't stand the government. If it were ran better maybe I'd have more respect for it, but you can't tell me that we elected George Bush as president for 2 terms. That's absolutely impossible, and if it is an honest result from the elections then America needs to get off their asses and vote because right now it seems that people are more concerned about who the next American Idol is than the president.
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A "normal" life is not a life well-lived. Life is far too complex and unpredictable to have rules or live by a routine. For the past 16 years I've tried to follow the "normal" way of doing things but it seemed to be leading me nowhere. Why is this cycle so popular? Why do so many people live the same, miserable, time-consuming lives?
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I don't believe in the government or leaders. I can't stand the media. I am an anarchist of sorts. I guess if I had to chose a form of government it would have to be one where the people make the laws, not rich, upper class assholes. My reasons for not wanting anything to do with the government are as follows..
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Lately I've been learning not to put my trust in anyone but myself. It feels like every time I expect someone to help me with something I get my hopes up, just to have them shot down. I guess I'm still as open as I've always been, I just don't really expect anything from anyone anymore. The funny thing is that I don't feel like that's a bad thing. It invites surprises into my life.
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I wish I could leave this town. Drive far, far away. Never looking back, Forgetting anyone I knew, and everything that I've done. Maybe things would be better, maybe they'd just go down hill. I'm pretty sure things couldn't get much worse than they already are. I feel as though my life has lost it's meaning and I'm not sure how or why.
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